It’s not often that I remember my dreams. If I do remember one when I wake up, the memory of it is gone after about an hour or so, as if it drifted out of my head while I was busy eating breakfast. Strange.
There are some that I remember quite vividly, and can still recall them as if they were real. One I blogged about before. Some of my more life-like dreams have recurring characters, who are not actually in my life. One, in particular, used to visit me often. He is brown and beautifully sexy…and faceless.
The first time he appeared, I was 27 or 28 years old. The dream took place far in the future and I was in the midst of an argument with my mom. She had grown old and was suffering from some kind of illness–Alzheimer’s maybe? We were arguing about cleaning the house, only, the house wasn’t our house. It was my tía’s house with the 70s-style wood cabinets and copper decorations along the ceiling to compliment yellow floral wallpaper. One minute my mom was lucid, the next she was not. We’d just eaten canned peaches from a gigantic costco-size can and were about to put the extra in the fridge. I took a plastic container from the cabinet. But she started obsessively opening utensil drawers, insisting that the extra peaches should be stored there. Before I could do anything about it, she poured the whole can of peaches into the drawer with the spoons and spatulas. A huge drippy, sticky mess. She went on as if it hadn’t happened.
I was upset — frustrated about the immediate situation, and scared about what was happening to her health and how we (mis ‘manitos and I) would care for her in her older age. But I had no idea how to talk to her because she could not hear me. Faceless brown guy swooped in, hugged me, and took me to the other room. We sat on the couch and he held me until I calmed down. He told me it would be okay, that he would be with me, mis ‘manitos, and my mom as we struggled through this rough part of our lives. I remember waking up feeling like things would be okay, like all the stress in my life was surmountable because I was not alone.
He came to me several times over the next few years. One amiga used to call him “peaches guy.” And just this afternoon, I shared the story with a different amiga. Feeling a little bashful and silly, I asked her, “Do you remember those dreams I used to have with the peaches guy?” I thought she could not possibly remember that. But she did.
He has not visited me in at least 5 years…until this week.
Maybe the spirits of the universe have been trying to tell me something. This time, I guess I should pay better attention to what’s going on with me that warrants such a nice visit.